A Kingdom for a small surprise, Dita entry 240

So I came home from work at 2am in the morning, went to my room when my housemate drops a bomb by saying that she is going home, to Taiwan. She has been contemplating it for awhile, so it wasn't really the biggest surprise, but still.....living alone for a month while she is away is a bit nerve racking for me to imagine. She plans on going home for a month, but every bone in my body tells me that (because she is damn easy influence by her surrounding.....especially her parents), she will go back for a month and then decide she wants to move back for good.

I went to bed, but wasn't necessarily worried much. I love my life at the moment and hope she would too, but she doesn't have what I have at the moment, a support system, positive outlook and a guy (who's not really mine) who keeps me standing tall. And to be honest, because of her negative and cynical outlook, she puts me down very easily and I end up thinking about keeping her emotions steady, without thinking of my own happiness. So, maybe it would be best if she moves on, back to Taiwan, where she belongs.

I would need to find a new place to live......but I will survive, I'm sure of it. God make me stronger than most people on this earth.