A Kingdom for chats between you and me, Dita entry 237
So, CY and I chat daily now.....
And these last couple of days, the topics has been slightly head spinning. The other night, since TW "finally" broke up with her Greek Guy, we talked about relationships, how he would know for certain if the girls he is with is for fun or forever, what his criterias are in a woman, how she has to be beautiful, smart, wise, nurturing (to their future children), which made me feel totally completely awkward and slightly judged. It made me sleep a bit restless.....thinking about "Do I fit in those categories?"
Tonight, just now, the topic was deeper and even more serious sounding. About marriage. We started from graduation, which then somewhat slipped into a marriage topic, with him saying how he would just sign a marriage license in the city hall, which crushed my heart to pieces. Odd, I know. He then ask me how I envisioned my wedding to be, and I told him about certain details that should be there, and how I always want all the silly little stuff I've dreamed about for the longest time. Of course, he didn't get it, and said that the wedding is one day, but marriage will be for the rest of your life, bla...bla....
That's how the chat ended, hahaha, he hasn't said anything again for the last 10 minutes. Awkward silence, as they say.
