A Kingdom for the long awaited email, Dita entry 233

So I came home from work yesterday afternoon, after a long day of serving people coffee and food. I turned on my laptop as I chatted with TW about how my day was when I saw it in my mailbox.......an email, the long awaited email from CY, titled "Better Late then Never". I actually have stopped hoping for any form of contact from him, afraid he might just simply bored of me or something, so it was a nice surprise after working all day.

Apparently, he was quite sick and couldn't email me simply for that reason. I read through his email multiple times, where he explained exactly all the emotions he felt during his sickness, which led to him fainting and being brought to the hospital. He then assured me that he was feeling much better after all the medication the doctors gave him.

I replied him right away, which I have never done before, out of pride...mostly, but he was sick, so...I wanted to express my concern. I can't believe he will be back by the end of this month. I mean, I don't live in the same city another, but somehow I'm still hoping we will see each other. Will we?

Another thing that happened to me yesterday, at work, one of my managers came to me as I was polishing glasses in the glass room and said he needed to talk to me, privately. So, we did. He said that I'm making great progress in my work and that I will be getting more shifts as they trust me to do the job right. He also said that starting January 2009, should I still need more shifts, he can help me get work at the Royal Albert Hall, since he knows people there. As he talked, I just smiled along while thinking "as much as I'm actually enjoying this, I'm not interested in making this my career. My parents did not support me to become a waitress in hospitality". But it was really nice of him though. I mean, in a way, he was supporting me, right?

The last thing, this morning, as I woke up, my Pal was online. Chatting to TW. I was instantly bothered although I have been completely fine for the last couple of days. But seeing his online button on my messenger just drove me mad, so I did what  do best. I deleted it. He had two IM ID and I deleted both. I also talked to TW that if he ask, don't tell him about anything going on in my life. If he wants to know, he can ask me directly. I did the same thing, although TW was chatting away with him, for the first time, I did not ask her about what it was all about.

Damn it, I actually thought I was completely over the hurt and pain, but apparently, every little thing can still spark the anger in me.

Please make it go away.